ANAMEMOIR

I want to live and I want to die at the same time. Or maybe I’m just sleepless…and feeling invincible, because how the fuck can I still live like this? Every square inch of my body fights for me as if they have their own little lives over and under my skin. My heart calms down when it’s too overwhelming because that is the only option for me in the end, methinks…but it beats aggressively when shocked. Just like how you get a concussion from extreme shaking of your head where your brain starts to damage itself floating in water.

I am overwhelmed. I am floating. I am over and under my skin. My body screams it will die at any moment…but my brain is too alive…both heavy and light. Maybe…I’m just sleepless. There are so many words and thoughts I want to say to you at this time…this moment is perfect for some bonfire and a company but the reality is I have a job tonight. I need to sleep. Fuck it. And where are you? And the sun is shining so brightly outside…. just… ugh. Goodnight.